2 kids pretending to be grown-ups...

I have a lot going on in my head right now...so my apoligies if this blog becomes lengthy or all over the place.

I have been feeling so frazzled lately, I am not sure if that is even the correct word. However, I will just move on.

Work is a huge struggle emotionally on me now. A lot has been going on in my office and it has been very hurtful. Things were finally discussed today and for that I am extremely grateful because it makes work tolerable now. Before I would be at work with knots in my stomach on the verge of tears, watching the clock witnessing the seconds pass, and feeling as though I was an inadequate employee. A situation I would not wish on anybody. As I stated before we did have a discussion today. And things were cleared up but, I am extremely disappointed at the reasons for the behaviors and obviously distressed at the behaviors also. Gratefully, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have an amazing husband and the blessing of finacial stability so, I am quitting my last day being end of May. However, my employers are not aware of this yet. I love my boss' but, it is time to move on and I know that it is best and I am grateful for the opportunity that they did give me but, its just NOT for me.

Headaches....ugh, for those who get these regularly I am SO SORRY!! I have been getting the worse headaches and I KNOW it is because of everything going on in my life. I have NEVER experienced such constant headaches in my life. My jaw and teeth are sore and I know its from being so tense.

School, I have 2 full weeks of school left before finals. I have written 2 out of my 4 required papers and am looking forward to a much needed vacation. :-)

Sunday Ryan and I went to the temple to see some statues that were on display in the Visitor's Center. I believe the artist name is Angela Johnson. The scultptures were made of clay and bronze and they were amazing!! Wow, what a good FHE activity, or just even one more place for some contemplation of the great gospel plan. (Sorry, to say the display is gone). There were various sculptures including a larger one of Christ, Joseph Smith's vision, a depiction of Christ with the woman accussed of adultery, and so many statues that are difficult to describe but, amazing!!! It was a great start to this week.

Here are me and Ryan's latest plans.
Us: Vacation for 10 days!!
Me: Quit work, take a month off
Me: Get new job starting in July
Me: Start nanny agency!! Wahoo!! So, excited for that
Us: Continue with school
Me: December GRADUATION!!!
Us: Enjoy a little bit more of life

I feel drained, exhausted, spent, and like I cried 10 gallons of tears and I haven't shed one. But, I am doing well I guess I am just being a girl (dang emotions). Going through the hard times always makes you grateful for what you do have.

Love to you all!